Well it is a slow and frustrating week here for me. What ever I have, be it GBS or not is (the Dr's don't really know what is wrong with me) really starting to get to me. There was a period that I thought it was getting better. That the numbness I felt in my legs and feet was slowing but surely fading away.
However this last week has been brutal. My legs have been dead. Tried running a couple of times.. easy runs.. yet I struggled on each one.. Nothing left to give at the end of each one.. and at least 1 min per mile added to my usual pace. What is now worse it has spread from my feet to my knees all the way up to my rib cage. The legs I don’t think are as numb as before by my abs and lower back.. You could stab me and I might not even know it. Went to bed last night wondering if it was going to reach my lungs/heart while I slept.. and if I would wake.
Anyway it has gotten past the point of trying to be positive.. In fact, I can’t even fake being positive to help the ones I care about. I guess the one bright side is that nobody has called me to tell me I tested positive for MS. Fuck this sucks.
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